I had this whole post planned where I went off on each of the 2 of you - leaving the other 2 out because their actions weren't as detrimental (overall) as yours for reasons I think we all know - and told you exactly where the bear shit in the buckwheat and just exactly why I'm still so angry with and let down by both of you. But the more I got to thinking about it, I realized a few things:
* First and foremost, just about anything I say here would most likely start more B.S. for Randy, which you've both proven you don't need my help with that. You have your "sources" for your "info," so good luck with that. I have to vent somehow and this is the most productive way, so it is what it is at this point.
* Whatever led you to act the way(s) you did has really nothing to do with Randy on a personal level. Your issues are your own - and the same goes for the other 2 - and while it goes against all of the anger I have for all of you, I hope all you find a way to deal with those issues and find the peace you need in whatever ways you need it.
* I realized that it's your karma and that while you'll tell yourselves whatever you need to to help yourselves sleep at night, the overall result will not change: You've lost a good friend and have risked losing a strong and dedicated member. And that's sad for you and the department.
* I've been waiting for both of you to get back from your power trips and man-up enough to actually attempt to talk to me to work it out - the passive-aggressive attempt by one of you was lame and doesn't even remotely begin to count, so don't fool yourself - because imo, that would go with what you preach about family. But I realized that your lip service about "family comes first in this department" is just that - lip service. So, I've pretty much given up on that ever happening. Imagine the weight off my shoulders...
* If either one of you cared/cares as much as you say you do, you would have handled this entire situation differently than you did and even if the way you handled it in the beginning didn't change, if you really did give a damn, you would have done more to fix it properly rather than try to sweep it under the rug and hope the storm passed quickly and quietly while appeasing whomever you need to appease outside of yourselves.
* Most importantly, I realized that time and energy spent on negative and immature things is wasted. I realized that my energy is better spent supporting my husband and encouraging him to be everything I know that he can be - which is an even better and stronger first responder than he's already proven himself to be in just 4 short years.
I have a challenge for both of you, though: I challenge you to look up the definition of the word "leader." I challenge you to weigh your actions and the overall outcome of those actions - and not just in regards to this situation - against that definition. My guess is you'll find a major gap between the two...or, at least I hope you do.
So, with all of this being said, I guess I should thank you for helping me prove to him what I already knew - he's better than any of this B.S.
Best of luck to both of you.
* First and foremost, just about anything I say here would most likely start more B.S. for Randy, which you've both proven you don't need my help with that. You have your "sources" for your "info," so good luck with that. I have to vent somehow and this is the most productive way, so it is what it is at this point.
* Whatever led you to act the way(s) you did has really nothing to do with Randy on a personal level. Your issues are your own - and the same goes for the other 2 - and while it goes against all of the anger I have for all of you, I hope all you find a way to deal with those issues and find the peace you need in whatever ways you need it.
* I realized that it's your karma and that while you'll tell yourselves whatever you need to to help yourselves sleep at night, the overall result will not change: You've lost a good friend and have risked losing a strong and dedicated member. And that's sad for you and the department.
* I've been waiting for both of you to get back from your power trips and man-up enough to actually attempt to talk to me to work it out - the passive-aggressive attempt by one of you was lame and doesn't even remotely begin to count, so don't fool yourself - because imo, that would go with what you preach about family. But I realized that your lip service about "family comes first in this department" is just that - lip service. So, I've pretty much given up on that ever happening. Imagine the weight off my shoulders...
* If either one of you cared/cares as much as you say you do, you would have handled this entire situation differently than you did and even if the way you handled it in the beginning didn't change, if you really did give a damn, you would have done more to fix it properly rather than try to sweep it under the rug and hope the storm passed quickly and quietly while appeasing whomever you need to appease outside of yourselves.
* Most importantly, I realized that time and energy spent on negative and immature things is wasted. I realized that my energy is better spent supporting my husband and encouraging him to be everything I know that he can be - which is an even better and stronger first responder than he's already proven himself to be in just 4 short years.
I have a challenge for both of you, though: I challenge you to look up the definition of the word "leader." I challenge you to weigh your actions and the overall outcome of those actions - and not just in regards to this situation - against that definition. My guess is you'll find a major gap between the two...or, at least I hope you do.
So, with all of this being said, I guess I should thank you for helping me prove to him what I already knew - he's better than any of this B.S.
Best of luck to both of you.
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